I have been working on a new quilt in the last couple of days. And I am so pleased!!! It is a totally new style for me and I am planning on making it even more flowery, flirty, girly. My inspiration came from the book Material Obsession Two, which I purchased recently.
After I was, and partly still am, in such a sad mood, I noticed once again how much it helps to put my energy in the creative process of patchwork and quilting. I once heard, that creative people often have tendencies to depression, or is it the other way around? Is the creativity one way out of the depression. For me it definitely is.
But one question pops into my mind then, is this working on something another way to hide before the sadness? Is it the way to avoid "being sad"?
Well anyway, at the moment it is my way to go through this time and I think there are worse things I could do.
Yesterday evening there was a huge thunderstorm here in Berlin. I soooo enjoyed that. I sat on my window sill, watched the flash lights coming closer, I listened to the wind going through the trees in the back yard, I felt the first drops of rain on my heated skin, and in the backround I heard "hallelujah".It was amazing. In these minutes, before the heavy rain set in, I felt so great and yet so small watching and feeling this nature power, listening to music which is such an important thing in my life. And then I knew, sadness will go away and it will come back... and it will go away again. This is how my life is and ever was. And it is ok. This is who I am. For me it is about how to learn to love me anyway. In every mood, in every state in every moment. I am working on that. And in the end... I am doing a good job with it.